Just a glimpse

New dreams, but not quite as strange.  I’m really only remembering snippets though.  Todd and I were walking down the street and there were two lions and a jaguar.  We inched slowly back to our van.  Next dream: I’m on a cruise ship with a friend from church and her mom.  I however am huddled  in a corner really upset that I left my phone charger at home.  Last dream:  I’m knitting something with really cool purple yellow yarn. 

Explanations: Judy was talking about the lions at the zoo to me.  I was talking about church before I went to sleep.  My phone really does need charged and I forgot to do it.  I read a knitting magazine before bed.    But the last two nights have been really active dreamwise.  I’m waking up tired.

I am a proponent of learning.  That should be obvious being an educator.  However, I sometimes have difficulty trying new things.  I’m a girl that goes to a restaurant and always orders the same dish.  I don’t like making phone calls.  I’m not a good net worker.  I have hang ups about going places that I don’t know.

Case in point, this wonderful little yarn shop uptown.  We have an amazing yarn shop in this little town that I live in.  I have begun knitting.  When you knit you need yarn.  I drive 35 minutes to buy yarn rather than go into this sweet little store. 

I did go in once, with my children.  I spoke with the owner briefly.  She is lovely.  She offered to teach me how to read patterns and teach me to knit.  Ummm…well I haven’t been back.  I planned to go back without my children, but … I don’t know why I haven’t been back. 

I almost went back.  I pulled in the parking lot.  Then I decided that since I wasn’t sure what project I was going to do, I should wait and go another day.  I have decided know.  Later this week I am going to go buy some beautiful yarn, the kind of yarn I see on Etsy.  (She is closed today, and I have a meeting tomorrow.)

My bigger question is why do I do this?  Why do I lack so much faith in myself that I paralyze myself?  It just doesn’t make sense.  Oddly I would bet that people that know me, even some that know me well, probably wouldn’t peg me to be like this.  I’m going to have to think about this….

Today is my very good friend’s birthday.  She is one of those amazing people that I call a “healer”.  Those are people that make you feel good about yourself just be being near them.  Jules is one of those people.  She is also an amazingly kind and loving woman.  I am very blessed that she is my friend (even if she does drag my lazy self out of bed before any sane person would think of getting out of bed  especially because she encourages me to walk in the mornings.) 

I have been working on Julie’s present for a while, although I wasn’t sure if I would actually give it to her.  This is my first knitting project.  The funny thing was that I was working on it in front of her last weekend at an outdoor concert.  I even told her what I was making.  I just didn’t tell her it was for her, but I was on a deadline! 

Happy Birthday Julie!