I am a proponent of learning. That should be obvious being an educator. However, I sometimes have difficulty trying new things. I’m a girl that goes to a restaurant and always orders the same dish. I don’t like making phone calls. I’m not a good net worker. I have hang ups about going places that I don’t know.
Case in point, this wonderful little yarn shop uptown. We have an amazing yarn shop in this little town that I live in. I have begun knitting. When you knit you need yarn. I drive 35 minutes to buy yarn rather than go into this sweet little store.
I did go in once, with my children. I spoke with the owner briefly. She is lovely. She offered to teach me how to read patterns and teach me to knit. Ummm…well I haven’t been back. I planned to go back without my children, but … I don’t know why I haven’t been back.
I almost went back. I pulled in the parking lot. Then I decided that since I wasn’t sure what project I was going to do, I should wait and go another day. I have decided know. Later this week 🙂 I am going to go buy some beautiful yarn, the kind of yarn I see on Etsy. (She is closed today, and I have a meeting tomorrow.)
My bigger question is why do I do this? Why do I lack so much faith in myself that I paralyze myself? It just doesn’t make sense. Oddly I would bet that people that know me, even some that know me well, probably wouldn’t peg me to be like this. I’m going to have to think about this….